~Understanding begins, but does not end, with the act of perception~

"Welcome to your life.."

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin--real life. But there was ALWAYS some OBSTACLE in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life."

-- Alfred D. Souza

Monday, April 26, 2010

Everything (You Want)

It's another Rainy April Monday
and I've been working like a slave for weeks.
I just keep wanting things I can't have.
All this wanting is no good.

And then I get this bitter taste in my gut
when I start thinking about all the fun I should be having.
I want to be young and silly.
...I am young and silly.

Today's a day for punching ex-boyfriends in the face
even though it's long been over
and burning bridal magazines
and telling parents their children are ugly harbingers of disease.

Today is a day made of kicking puddles and
the dirty looks of a malcontent like me
and more strange dreams of
a strange life I don't recognize.

It's another Rainy April Monday
and I'm a slave to all the things I want
that I don't have
and that's everything.

1 comment:

  1. I have a message that might set you free.... come home to Mum lovie...time for a little nurturing, yes? You are greatly loved and so then you have everything...no? yes.
    I love you...even if you were once an ugly harbinger of disease!

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